Tarot for Teddy: Facing a Challenge
Teddy seemed a bit more depressed this time I saw him than usual. He'd been working hard at building a relationship with his live-in duck girlfriend, Anatra, at the same time as building their business. The last time I saw him he was stressed out but happy -- this time he just looked tired.
"I feel like I'm doing a crappy job of everything," he said. "I haven't finished any projects, and Anatra is stressed out too. I was always good at getting things done, and she was always happy when we were together before. I just don't know if this is working."
"It sounds like you're really doubting yourself and your ability to deal with the situation," I said. "Let's look at some cards then. We'll pick four. The top will be the challenge, the left the strength you bring to the situation, and the right the weakness. The bottom one we'll use for advice."
I laid out the cards, and we got, in that order, the Two of Pentacles, the Seven of Swords, the Ace of Swords, and the Wheel of Fortune.
I noted that it was pretty cool that we picked the Two of Pentacles to represent his challenge -- because it's all about balance, the physical process of balancing energy and tasks in your day to day life. I pointed out to him that while it's nice to see a confirmation of what we think the problem is, that he needed to understand that there's two things going on here -- the actual challenge of balancing things, and then all the drama and worry and self-doubt we add on top of it.
I reminded him that balancing life and love is hard work, and in the thick of things its rare to find a point where everything is just perfect. You may be close to it a lot of the time, but you rarely stay there.
"Yeah," he said. "I think the challenge for me is realizing that I'm always going to be pulled back and forth and that I'll never get it "right." And I need to remind myself that that's ok."
"Yes you do," I said. "And that's what you need to bring to the situation. The Seven of Swords, to the left there, indicates thoughts that don't align with your highest good. You have the ability to identify these thoughts and ask yourself whether they're really true or not."
He snorted. "Like telling myself I should be able to do everything perfectly, or that Anatra should never be unhappy and if she is it's my fault, or that everything should be easier than it is, or that other people know how to do this better than me?"
"You're really good at 'shoulding' on yourself," I said, smiling. "And that leads right into your weakness. The Ace of Swords, upside down of course. Usually it's about mental focus, clarity, getting right to the heart of the matter. Which you do, but mostly just to stab yourself in the back."
"You know me so well," he said. "And what about the Wheel of Fortune? I don't know what that means."
"It's about the cycles of life, things happening in their own time..."
"Ah. I get it, Obi Wan Kenobi."
"Way to go, Grasshopper."
Teddy smacked himself on the head. "Don't quit your day job."